June 3-Representing Christ

This has without a doubt been one of the best weeks of my mission. There were so  many instances where I felt we were direct answers to someones prayers. At the beginning of the transfer Elder Burrows and I set the goal to be "Sanctified by the spirit", I feel like I understood what that meant for the first time. There are so many experiences I want to write about but I feel like nothing I will type will do them justice. I just wish you could see and understand the miracles I have witnessed and the feelings I have had. I feel unworthy to be representing the lord everyday because I am so weak, but I have learned that He does not want perfect missionaries, he just wants humble followers who will bring their weaknesses to him.

27 And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.

 A couple of hours ago I had the chance to share this with a homeless man. We walked into our church to get our groceries and we herd a hello from around the corner. This man introduced himself and we sat and talked for a bit. He started to break down and sob. "I just can't do this anymore. Why is it so hard?! I have done all I can to be a good man, I try to look to God in all things but it is just so hard!" I could really feel his pain. I could see that he was sincere. He came to the church an hour before looking for help and guidance. He just wanted peace, he wanted love, he wanted mercy. he knew he lacked faith and wanted to gain a greater belief he was just so weighed down and couldn't see that we were the answer to his prayers. He just kept asking us variations of the same question, "Why is it so hard?". Elder Burrows asked him if Christ was right there what would you want him to say. He gave the humble answer "I love you. Everything will be okay. You will make it to heaven and all will turn out right", then I felt the impression to lean over and ask what name he saw on my tag. I told him that as a living representative of the Lord Jesus Christ I can tell him that Christ does love him and everything will be okay. Elder Burrows told him about blessings and offered to give him one. As we put our hands on his head I could feel the real genuine love that God had for him. We continued to minister to him the best we could but he had to go. On our way out we offered him our groceries, and he said he only had a loaf of bread. We gave him as much as he could carry and then gave him a hug.

9 Yea, and are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things, and in all places that ye may be in, even until death,

Like I said earlier, words cannot express the true joy I have to be a Representative of Christ. I am an unworthy, weak, and insignificant servant, but because of the mercy of Christ he has allowed me to be his mouthpiece in many situations. On my mission I have been able to mourn with those that morn, and comfort those that need comfort. I have been a representative of him, albeit a weak one, and I am grateful.

Love,

Elder Judd